Would you indulge me for a moment? It’s World Autism Awareness Day, and though I am aware of the 1 in 88 children who now are diagnosed with autism….I’m more aware of the one who lives in my home, in my heart. He is…my son. and he has autism. and he is nonverbal. and he is loud. and he is still not potty trained, but getting there. and he is all jumping and running, or maybe laying around and leaning and pulling. and he is up all night. and he is always pulling his shoes off his feet. oh, but when he smiles….and laughs and laughs and laughs…your heart melts. He loves to be tickled and cuddled and rough-housed…and if I could still lift him, he’d love it. He’s a big, big, boy. I remember holding that big heavy baby that just belly laughed! Oh I love his laugh! He’s smart. He can’t say it, but he can do anything on a computer! He loves the little things like light shining through the leaves of the tree, or shining through our window. Counting my fingers. or his fingers. or anyone’s fingers. It never gets old. He could do it over and over again. The same thing with children’s songs. And even though it can be frustrating, it is also beautiful, and simple, because he is IN the moment. There is no thought of the past or the future. He only thinks of now, and we could all learn from that. It’s a long road ahead. He’s only 7. There are so many who have walked this road longer than me, and I could think about what we’ve been through, or all that we could go through in the many years to come, but I choose today to focus on today, with him, and his laugh, and the joy of being his mom.